I'm bipolar and an artist. I never realized that I relied on the hypomania to "feel" inspired to go in my studio and paint until I got into treatment.

When I got "stable" from treatment and meds, I felt like I lost that "spark".... the divine madness.

I talked it over with my art teacher who knows I'm bipolar. Her mother was bipolar so she's had experience with it. She said many artist go through periods where they just don't feel like making art. Not just bipolar people. That we just need to show up lay out our tools and start doing it. I've looked back over my artwork. I have a huge body of work created over the years. My work is better now than it ever was before. I have the proof in front of my eyes.

I feel grief and loss over those high feelings. I had fun sometimes but over all it was damaging to my own mental health and relationships with others.

You may need a med adjustment, or reduction of meds. Only you know how you feel and what you need.

After years of complaining about feeling dull and fogged out by meds I finally got my doctor to prescribe provigil for me. It has really helped and I feel more clear and able to think again. Maybe this might be an option for you.

Best of luck in your journney

PS: being a bladesmith sounds fascinating. I have a great love of blades of all sorts. I love to watch that show about then on TV "Forged in Fire."