Thanks Olanza_what?I am sorry to hear of your problems with your heart and sleep apnea.

Yes well you can choose your reactions but only to a certain extent,when people are being pricks you can't always stay in control...sometimes it is so upsetting you just have to blow.Anyway i don't need advice on how to conduct myself with other people thanks.And I am at peace with myself and I am one of those people who content themselves with what is not focus on so called,'getting there', or 'soon be at peace', I tend to see that kind of thinking as useless crap,sorry but I can't stand to be patronised it is the thing I hate most,that and other people acting superior.

So my daily update:
I have not been well again today,I felt very tired and slept all day.I was going to see a film but couldn't I wasn't up to it.
I can't do with people patronising me,I know I can achieve things and that it is all going to work out,I just want to be listened to not encouraged like a five year old child.
I mean people assume you are their pet project that they need to fix up and tell what to do,I hate that!

I am having to go to an appointment tomorrow morning,and I hope to see a film later.
I am depressed at how empty my life is right now,and how lacking in human companionship I am.I get sad and lonely.But I don't need patronising that I am sure about.I mean look at your own life before you assume I am lacking and have aspirations for mine!