little turtle, do you have a therapist you can process this stuff with? I'd imagine re-evaluating the profession you devoted so much of your career to would be intense. I work in the mental health field myself and i have found some truly terrible psychiatrists out there but also some absolutely wonderful ones. I think that meds are way overprescribed for many people who just have situational depression or low coping skills. I also know that some people do need meds. I'm personally struggling with managing my own mental health issues and being there for my clients. It's not an easy field to work in. I hope you have some supports. It seems like the community on here appreciates your insights and advice.