Last session Psychologist said that she felt CPTSD rather than depression was the main issue and that was the reason for changing focus and switching from Schema to EMDR.
When I think about my life events and triggers - I just can't equate them to 'trauma'.
Trauma to me is someone who saw or experienced something horrific - perhaps through their line of work, was badly injured, suffered great loss etc.
I know it's not helpful to compare one's own experiences with others, but it doesn't seem right to me, to even put myself in the same bracket. Much the same as I don't regard myself as being ill. A previous counsellor once said to me "we are going to get you well". I was both embarrassed and angry at the same time, I told her I did not and never had, thought of myself as being ill.
I guess that's why I'm feeling so ambivalent about therapy.