I called about 75 minutes ago, and had to leave voicemail. She will call as soon as she can. If not by 6, I'll text her. I'm noticing a few of my warning symptoms of oncoming paranoia like heightened senses of hearing and taste which means I'm not far from peaking or crashing entirely. I'm standing brave anyway. Not actually standing at the moment. Just laying down trying to avoid thinking. It's a sort of meditation where I ignore my feelings and thoughts. It got me through 19 years of marriage anyway