Well, a week since my first ever anti depressant.

Stiff jaw. Slight loss of appetite.

I abandoned the Valium-type drug the doc also gave me because it caused exhaustion, even when taken at night (on my way to work, a stranger on public transport had to wake me up to get off at my stop... very embarrassing... never happened before).

The anti depressant drug itself, I know, needs more time to work.

I'm glad to have found this forum.

It's a hard time, though, being at this early stage. I feel exposed and vulnerable, having stopped denying there's a problem... but I'm not at the moment seeing any improvement.

I have potentially a psychologist who could see me. She can only do Tue and Wed from 9-5. Those are days I can never get off work (and she's a half hour train drive from my workplace).

My exhaustion is finding this an insurmountable problem, at the moment.

My boss is one of the reasons I'm in this stressed state, and I really don't want to tell them about my issues, in order to take the time off.

I'll let a bit more time pass, and see if the mist clears on this complication.