(((((((SweetCrusader)))))))
First I would like to say that it feels sooo good to hear that you actually care for your clients and not there because its "your job".

Death is difficult in any type of relationship whether family, friend, client...etc. But like others I agree that we have a time to be born and a time for our death and no matter the circumstances surrounding us when its time...its time.

Look in your heart....did you do everything in your power to help that person with the knowledge you had? By the sounds of it you did and more. Unfortunately we can not force adults to make the decisions that is best for them.

I did not have a client die but I understand the feelings of should have, could have, what if syndrome. We second guess our actions of the time but we must fall back to "we did the best we could at the time" if in deed we did do the best we could. And by the sounds of it you did.

Of course its always easier said then done....I know from experience. I still struggle with second guessing myself in a death.

Just know that you will make a wonderful psychologist if you work from the heart. It sounds like you are on the right path.
Snowy