i'd like to share my struggles in working through abuse. this new years eve i decided to share it with my parents, who both emotionally and psychologically abused me from a very early age, i felt none of the old feelings of anger, fear,sadness ,confusion.i saw their ways of dysfunction, i felt no longer drawn into it or reacting to it, the day after i chatted with a friend also a survivor, how do we heal? forgiveness, accepting them as fallible , it wasn't our fault, help from others, reading, therapy,poetry,journals,medication,meditation, not giving up on ourselves. there wasn't an aha moment for either of us it seems like it is a process, i still have poor mental health,but maybe that's the way i'm supposed to be in this life? i remember at one point in my life thinking i'd never be released from the poison of abuse, i was wrong, keep strong, we can heal
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