My dad is bipolar and I am very much like him. We have a lot of mental illness on his side of the family. My one son is very much like me although he is very young I worry for him. Talking to my dad the other day he told me he never experienced the types of things I have, my more extreme mania I guess or the suicidal thoughts(which I basically have most of the time whether I am too happy or too sad). That made me feel pretty bad to know that I am actually worse than him, that sounds selfish but it's just how I feel