So sorry! I know how you feel! My house still feels kind of empty. Hubby was holding hands with a young woman he works with and danced with her at a party at our house. He had never even danced with another woman in our 32 years together. When I questioned him later, it was a huge explosion of anger. All of his friends thought this was very unusual for him, also, as his is a no touch me person. He did admit feelings for her, and it really has me depressed and humiliated. I hope it will get better but he told me it would take time to get over his feelings for her, then he keeps getting angry at me because he knows I am thinking about it. I can't help that!! I guess we all have our struggles. I just thought that I really had the perfect guy, perfect marriage, no worries, then here I am 58 years old, and this happens. I take care of myself, etc. , but I guess it is just the times we live in. Everyone just go do their own thing, and to heck with the rest!! I love him, but just am having a hard time with this so I sympathize with whatever you are going through. The empty house thing is what got my attention. We can both be here together, and it feels empty. I feel betrayed even though there was no sleeping together. It was headed there for sure. Hang in there!!