I wanted to open up about a psychological issue that has been ongoing for about a year now. At first, I thought I was going through a phase of some sort, and figured it would pass. Did not want to be melodramatic and I certainly am not an attention seeker, but at this point, it's probably best that I try and get some advice as I need to take some steps to recovery.

I don't know of a specific condition or complex I have, but it's been a struggle dealing with this.

In a nutshell: I have not been feeling quite "myself" for about a year now. What exactly does that mean? I suppose it's just not having my old, God given desires or mental clarity for certain things I once valued. It's not in all parts of life, but mostly concerning my social life. I am not unpleasant to be around or "depressed" per se, but my enjoyment factor isn't where it once was in keeping up with friends and family or in having genuine and pure-hearted romantic pursuits.

Maybe the best way to illustrate is that I have not had a desire to use Facebook all year, and check in with friends/family or people I've otherwise been interested in in the past. I used to like posting updates and staying connected, but now I do not have that desire or inclination.

Another reason I am avoiding social media, and this is probably more significant, is because I find myself going through a bit of an identity crisis as far as what I want in life from a social standpoint. I never get lonely and have not been motivated at all to meet friends or have any sort of romantic pursuit. Perhaps I am content with being isolated and not having serious friendships as I am plenty busy and ambitious with my businesses, but something is amiss. This is particularly so when it comes to dealing with romantic or sexual emotions.

About a year and a half ago I was rejected by a girl I was very fond of. It was very heartbreaking for me, as my feelings for her grew deep over time. Since then, I have seen my feelings for her wane which is understandable, but it was hard to accept. Now I am at the point where I don't feel like I know what I like in a girl anymore. I am unsure of what my "type" is, even though it seemed so painfully obvious when I was pursuing this girl. Now that I don't feel the same way, I can't even look at a picture of her as I feel "challenged" to feel a certain way that would reinforce my sense of attraction. Instead I am left with internal doubt. I cannot even construct the characteristics of what my ideal dream girl would look like. I have found myself sexualizing women more and more and this has just muddled my mind as I lack discernment about what I genuinely find attractive.

I guess this is a two pronged problem I am dealing with: I am not getting the same satisfaction and desires with social interactions and I find myself lost with where to go next, especially with any sort of romantic pursuits. I don't feel like I am properly expressing my current psychological state but perhaps some questions can let me better explain it.