Think about ways to improve.......there are two conditions - you and the things you can't control. For now, focus on you. Do the things that YOU want to do and move away from being a prisoner of condition. In the beginning, I was selfish with my time - I needed to focus on ME. Then, let the things you can't control simply roll out around you.

Most importantly, take it one step at a time. This will be a journey.

I know this sounds like preaching and if it comes across as such, I apologize. I can only speak from my own position and where I was. There was a time when I was miserable and I didn't know what to do or where to turn. I came to a point at which I was convinced things wouldn't improve. Then, I received a diagnosis and some guidance from professionals. And I simply went from there. I've been to the hospital probably 50x in the last two years for all sorts of jive, but it all adds up to improvement. True, I don't understand your wider condition - I am in a place where I have good support from people who love me. But.....there are still obstacles I need to climb over and I know that once I get over the first obstacle, there will be another one to climb. It will be a lifelong battle - BP doesn't go away. I don't feel cursed, I feel blessed that I have the knowledge and the power to make things better. So I simply accept it because I can't change it.

Rock on.