Not having sex any more in a bad marriage. It became a nightmare, struggle for control to the death.

On Cymbalta which doesn’t block the big O. Get horny once a week approx and have been taking care of it myself. Feeling so ashamed and humiliated about sex altogether now.

When I was single, I masturbated approx 2-3x week maybe, was early 20’s, was not ashamed or humiliated at all. Felt very natural about it.

I’ve been traumatized, but I still get aroused (and fantasize) anyway.