i don't believe T *missed* me, that would be an awful lot to expect. He said his break had been restful... what he does each day is his job, his WORK... how many people miss their job when on vacation? i said once before that i am willing to concede(sp?) that he probably does occasionally think of a client... but which one? Do i have a 1/20 chance? 1/50? Like what odds do i have and what does that depend on? Does he like about the ones he likes more, or the ones he likes the least, or the ones who have the biggest, baddest problems? This is all so very new and important for me, everything he says has significance to me, but he's been doing this for 20yrs... how much of what i say and do is just plain dull for him? i've only been seeing him 10months, i'm sure we haven't even gotten close to "interesting" yet. i do think he is a little hopeful tho because i want longer term and most people here don't.

i think if they missed us they would say so... they aren't that wet behind the ears (naive). Any T who has been around knows the way it goes for us. Unless a client is one of those who would develop some kind of extreme meaning from it, i think they would say something. So, to me, nothing is something and not the something i wanted