Depakote will tamp down mania. That’s what it’s for. It doesn’t work well with depression.

But here’s my question to you. Did you enjoy IP? Because it didn’t seem like you did. So why do you want to mess around with your mess and get manic again? It will only lead you back IP. Or worse, you could die. Last time you almost jumped off a bridge. Is that what you want? I’m not judging if you do, I’m just saying you need to look at your motivation. Mania may have been fun for you but I’m sure it was terrifying and heartbreaking for your husband.

Sleeping 6-7 hours is not an excessive amount of sleep. It’s right about normal, even on the short end of normal. As for the blurry/sore eyes, that could be a side effect of the risperdal which you’ll have to discuss with your doctor.

In the end, your doctor is right. You have no idea which way you’ll go. And even if you do go up, you don’t know if it will be happy mania or horrible mixed mania. You don’t want that, trust me.