All I know is she used to like me. Everyone I've looked up to start off liking me. Then once it sinks in that I look up to them, the start rejecting me. I honestly thought this person at work would be different. I shoulda known better. Yet, I never stopped hoping that someday, I'll be able to look up to someone w/o them turning on me. I wouldn't be mean to someone who looks up to me. I'd be flattered.