sorry you are suffering from flashbacks. I think anyone who has suffered severe trauma feels like it will always feel bad. And that you will never recover.

I can't tell you that you will forget. I didn't. But I've let it go to the past. It is possible to heal. The flashbacks lessen on intensity.

Mostly I am ok now and live a happy mostly normal life. But occasionally get triggered. My husband knows what happened to me and never deliberately sneaks up on me and say boo!, or surprises me in the shower. We were together for 4 years before I was able to go in the bathroom and not lock the door.

Yesterday he came up behind me and kissed my neck. I didn't hear him and I was startled and screamed and elbowed him in the head. We both apologized and hugged. I felt a little shaky for a while but calmed down pretty quickly.

It does pass