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i can totally relate to a lot of your fears. I'd pick sanity though. what is the first step you can take, that you feel you can mange, to start doing some of the things you mentioned that you need to do. do you feel like you can even live on your own? is staying at home not an option anymore? separation like you mentioned is terrorfying to me. i just wouldn't like living by myself. well, terrorfied of it is more accurate. could you stay there a bit longer and work on the job part first...that sounds like the first step towards making yourself feel more self sufficient. just wondering...
susan