I hate IP but I get a little smarter every time, pretty sure I could avoid it from now on lol. The pdocs dont care anyway, I dont have an appointment until end of november. I told them about my eyes and they said to just watch it when I was in hospital but it still hasn't gone away. No one except my husband seems upset by the fact that I find it all so funny.

I've been home for a week and every day I feel too high and too low so if I have a choice I choose up. I dont like where I'm at and I prefer being an energetic, bad, fun person. I'm ambivalent about death and I dont have much empathy anymore although earlier this year (in the nice voluntary IP place) I listed being empathetic and caring as some of my best traits. I just dont care anymore about anything I would rather go have fun and cause trouble than spend time worrying about how other people feel.

I was hoping someone had a better experience to share with me hahaha but I think for now I will just skip it every few days and see how that goes.