The only constant is studying Polish for 1-2 hours a day. On a few days it's all I have time for. Even though I work part-time, sometimes I get an urgent task, plus I like to walk for an hour or two and cook my meals.

I kind of picked up the guitar again when I got inspired by a song, but after about a week it's getting boring, and I'm not sure what to do about that.

I tried to start writing again, but got interrupted by an urgent work task, and upon returning to the draft, I hate what I've written and don't see a direction to continue.

I also have been trying to come up with an idea for a videogame which would be and would feel feasible on my lonesome. I've been going through ideas from bigger to smaller, and I've arrived essentially on a dialogue (interactive fiction) with a single person which is possibly a demon who's trying to tempt the player or uncover their story. I don't have anything more concrete than that. And even though that's the most realistic idea so far, it's also the hardest to get excited about.

Meanwhile, my humble skills (if you can even say that) are continuing to decay. Not to mention the time I invested in studying drawing and other art, which could potentially be useful with all that, but I can't even start coming up with ideas for that.

I know this sounds pathetic, but I feel like my potential is constantly draining away.

I don't know if any realistic advice applies to my situation. It just seems that telling this to the world is better than nothing.