I'm not chasing mania, I am not going to be manic. I just want to be happy and energetic and have fun. I can be more careful this time and according to every one I could just end up depressed instead so then I would just start taking the meds again or call the pdoc. Depression has always been my normal, at least I can catch up on tv then hahaha. The pdoc said we were trying for functionally happy but again, I iust dont see that ever happening so f it