This is the song I responded to when Jesus called me to either confess my faith in him or jump off the fence.

For me, it was a very emotional slice of time. My heart started pounding hard and my knees started shaking. I was petrified of walking down the isle to the altar in front of a huge, crowded church.

Like the Prophet Samuel, I asked God "What?? What do you want with me? I can commit my life to you right here at my seat!" No, that wasn't good enough; not for me and not for the One who was calling me.

To distract myself, I started paying attention to the words of the song; singing them in order to block out the pounding of my heart and my shaky knees. Before I knew it, I was walking down that long, long isle down to the front of the church. I repeated the words that were given to me to say and I was shocked at the intensity and the loudness of my voice, but I had made my promise to God.

By the time I had walked the one block to my house, the feeling was gone. I felt no different than when I had walked to church. My mother wanted me to talk to my uncle about my experience but I didn't want to share it with that old man. He was a minister and pretty much the patriarch of both my aunt's (his) family and of my mom, her mom and my family. Something told me not to share with him.

Looking back, there were many ups and downs in my young life. I was 12 at the time. I tried to be a new Christian and then I'd give up and continued like I had been before my experience. In fact, in many ways, I forgot what had happened and lived a promiscous life. Yet, I did none of the things that I was accused of by my mother. Something held me back from going completely wild. I could have, easily, but I just wouldn't completely cross that line again.

It wasn't until I had two children that the Holy Spirit nudged me again and I was baptized by immersion. From then on, I tried to live a Christian life. I failed quite often but God was still by my side, taking care of me. There were things that happened that I couldn't deny that God knew my needs before I did and filled them. He has continued to watch over me as I moved away from Him and then back again. This is the song that gave me the courage to move close to Him and eventually, I kept Him by my side.

There is no fear of rejection or abandonement with God. He loves us no matter who we are and were we are in this journey called Life.


Just as I am, without one plea,
But that Thy blood was shed for me,
And that Thou bidst me come to Thee,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.

Just as I am, and waiting not
To rid my soul of one dark blot,
To Thee whose blood can cleanse each spot,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.

Just as I am, though tossed about
With many a conflict, many a doubt,
Fightings and fears within, without,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.

Just as I am, poor, wretched, blind;
Sight, riches, healing of the mind,
Yea, all I need in Thee to find,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.

Just as I am, Thou wilt receive,
Wilt welcome, pardon, cleanse, relieve;
Because Thy promise I believe,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.

Just as I am, Thy love unknown
Hath broken every barrier down;
Now, to be Thine, yea, Thine alone,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.