Yes, we all do that. Put on the ‘I’m fine’ act with a big smile on our faces. My first lot of EMDR stopped the flashbacks for me, but like you, my PTSD stays with me all the time. I still get triggered, only now though, I have better coping strategies. I too would like rid of the PTSD, but I’m also realistic enough to know that all I can really expect is to be able to manage it. I have a two year old dog who is so good for me. She gives me a reason to struggle on & is always supportive & loving. She calmed me when I did have flashbacks & she was only a little pup then. She grounds me & just touching her brings me back to the here & now.