This whole ‘look up to’ thinking seems faulty. Why do you look up to these few people? Does look up to mean they are better than you? Then you want to be physically close to them. So close you are stalking them. Like they are a God or something? No, this whole idea is not healthy thinking.

You could think of someone as a friend. Or you could admire someone you know. But that never means you are to become physically attached to them. Where did you get the idea this is a thing that happens? People don’t think like this.

You got a faulty idea somewhere.