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OMG, I have that "merging thing" too. I don't think i've ever run into anyone else that used that term in that way and really got it. wow...kinda shocking in a validating kind of way.

SUCKS to live with this identity thing doesn't it??? It's sooo unbearably painful. to feel the need to merge and, well, not be able to cuz i guess we just weren't made to do that once we're adult. you know this means we didn't get to merge when we were supposed to be able to...as babies...and this pisses me off cuz the amount of screwyness i have because of it is unbelievable.

i hate feeling this defective and unwhole. like a half seeking it's other half and it keeps kicking me in the face that i can't have it that way.

arrrggggghhhhh