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When I was waiting I heard him laughing with the client before me. Then when the door opened they both had smiles. He looked at me and the smile disappeared. I felt like I had to go in there and be smiley/happy in order to gain his approval.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">I'm so sorry, sister. I can see that would get things off to a shaky start, especially the part about his smile disappearing when he looked at you. What does that mean? Maybe just that he knows you two have serious work to do and he doesn't want to minimize it by appearing too jokey.

My own kind of yucky laughing experience with T: Once he and the client before me were laughing loudly together and I could hear them really well, so I knew they must be right by the door, near his desk, where his computer was. I thought well, they're sharing some good laughs on the way out. No big deal. Then at the end of my session, he called me over to his computer, by the door, and showed me a couple of emails he had received from people with funny pictures in them. And he laughed at these as he showed them to me and I realized he was going through the same routine as with the last client, and I suddenly didn't find these pictures humorous at all. I tried to force myself to look at them and react as if they were funny, but all I could think was I was just one of many clients and T was running through his "end of the session routine" for that day and showing me pics he had already shown a dozen clients and laughing at them for the dozenth time. It was really awkward and awful.