Hm. Dunno. It could be dissociation or something else. I am a person prone to getting sucked up in their own head. I struggle to know if my living in my head stuff is dissociation related or maybe it's my autism or some weird compulsive day dreaming, my brain trying to tell me something... I have no clue.

I'm not a religious person these days... almost athiest here who happens to like the principia discordia and the tao teh ching. It has not always been this way with me though. I got into some pagan stuff some years ago. I'm married to a wiccan priest (I never was a wiccan though) so I feel compelled to ask if you have done anything to try to find out if it is something outside your head trying to impact you. I'm not suggesting poking things with a stick or anything.. I was thinking shielding though. Not sure if you do that or even believe in it, but that could be worked to let good in and keep bad out. That way if it is external, it will only be of the wanted variety. It might be helpful.. it might be stuff you already do and I'm talking for no good reason at all. Eh. Figured why not since it was in my head...

Not sure if this is how it works for you or not, but a lot of my lost in the head times (I call it head trippin) tend to get worse when things in my life are not so great. Totally stress related for me. Sometimes I have gotten a push to change life situations from it... like that stuff was the final kick in the backside I needed at that time to do x y or z. It can be a positive. Sometimes I do nothing from it except get an escape from a reality i want to hit with a baseball bat. I guess that's at least something... a break is a break and sometimes they are needed to keep the bat out of my hand. Then other times that stuff gets me, and it won't let go. Then it is a problem. If I don't function in my life because I am living in head... yeah. Not okay for me.

I mention that since you mentioned getting triggered and wanting to move, being able to make changes... being able to be understood. I'm not trying to dismiss what you have going on as simply stress... but if you are a person who believes in something out there, some universal force or however you choose to define it, maybe that thing that connects all of us, is in us, through us, around us, is trying to give you a nudge that it is time to promote positive and needed changes in your universe. Maybe change is coming. I dunno.

Hm. I'm thinking I using a lot of words to not say much at all. I'll hush up and meander off now. But first... good to see you again and hope this finds you well

-V