I'm so sorry you're going through this difficult time. When I'm hypomanic, I get agitated, am quick to get frustrated, have racing thoughts, am forgetful, etc. Being on an AP helps to reduce these symptoms, but that's just me. I hope you can find a solution that you're happy with. As for your mother, you're a grown man; I might be tempted to ask her to keep her thoughts & opinions to herself. It seems like she's just increasing the negative feelings you're having.