I find telephones really difficult, but in the past have emailed The Samaritans. Although there wasn't an immediate response, I did find it really helpful.

They didn't focus too much on the suicidal stuff, but seemed to be good at asking questions to get me thinking about different things and the emails felt warm and caring.

I did tell my T, but I think although my T didn't want me to be in a bad place, was pleased that I had recognised that I needed help and that I took steps to get that help.

Hope you are doing OK today Trace.