I am tired, really fatigued with some other symptoms but it is the pain is what is keeping me awake at night and distracting me at work. These are new symptoms. I have other health issues that they follow me for but this was new and different. I could not get into my PCP, someone in the practice rechecked me for some basic labs to try to explain it. These labs were normal and so that was that.

I called and they told me,"There is nothing else to do. You are normal; it must depression causing the fatigue " I am NOT normal, just because I have BP does not explain everything; I can still get sick. Did they ever ask me if perhaps I might be sad or depressed, no, because it only occurred to them as an excuse later because if they actually thought that, why would they not offer help and why would you not responsibly follow-up on that? That's not what they thought, I was being dismissed.

What about the other symptoms besides the fatigue? What I am now, besides scared, is angry. Something is not right, the pain is affecting my sleep, my work, and my life and in addition to annoying, the pain and the fatigue are distracting too. I am tired of my mental health being used as an excuse and even after all these years you would think I would be used to it but it still digs. Perhaps since it is all mental, I should just wish it away.