I've been thinking this morning about a problem I have, and I just don't know how to get past it. I have a giant fear of talking to anyone when I'm unwell. Or letting anyone see me unwell. It bleeds over into my life because I won't let anyone be close to me due to it. I won't pursue relationships or friendships. I'm talking makes me physically sick anxiety straight up fear.

I feel like everyone will just hate me for being sick. And that those that don't hate me will try to make me go to the hospital, which is a whole other fear.

My pdoc has said I hide, and that I'm so alone. It's true. This is a large reason why. I've never told him this. He's one of the ones that'd put me in the hospital.

I'm not sure I make sense, but any advice would be appreciated.