If I were you I'd start retaking the risperidone if only to keep me out of the hospital. I struggle being a mom and a wife, not even a half way descent one. I would love to be a person that just comes naturally but I'm not. What meds are you abusing? IP usually just gives meds and keeps you safe. If you can look for an intensive out patent person, or partial hospitalization program. They can't fix us but the meds are suppose to help a little.