Dear Kerry,

Since the age of 8, I can vividly remember looking outside the window watching other kids play outside. I wondered, "why am I so damn scared to go outside". About an hour ago, I had to go to the physical therapist and the same feelings that I had then, I still have today. In fact, every single thing that I do causes these same feelings over and over. I too, think I am some kind of vampire insomniac that has these uncontrollable anxiety attacks whether it is day or night. I can't believe I have functioned at any capacity for all these years. But, here is the kicker: No matter how painful and torturous it is for me, I still fight through it. Again, this is every single day. Now, I read that you mentioned that wish you were confident, intelligent, and useful. I want to encourage you to think about it this way. You know, I have not been here at Psych Central for all that long, but I have been here long enough to read and respond to other postings in the forum. More times than I can remember, I see you replying offering support in the form of hugs, kind words, and/or incredibly sharp and useful advice. Being the sort of stubborn person I am, I know that I am right. :-))))) I think that you should give yourself the credit you deserve. I know for a fact that your other friends here feel the same way. Well, I hope you rest well, and then tomorrow, get out and let other people get to see what a warm and smart person you are. Now, put on your Nike shoes and Just Do It! :-)

Take care,

David (NewDawnFades)