Being on meds feel weird they do it's an adjustment period. Hell I've been on these meds for 6 months and I'm still not "me". I'm quiet, shy and withdrawn. I'm not depressed but it feels close to it. I'm not the person that my husband fell in love with I'm some how less when I'm stable. I also feel like it's my family's happiness over mine. Honestly I see us ending in a divorce. However if I'm not on meds I'm a danger to myself, whether it's suicidal or delusional. Even with meds I have my ups and downs they're just shorter. Give yourself time to explore this new person. Your use to the unwell you. It'll takes time give your self time. Can you see your therapist more?