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Originally Posted by emgreen
I quit so long ago that I didn't consider the difference between urges and longings until you brought it up. I guess I did have an urge a few months ago...urges for me only last a few seconds before I ask myself, "What the hell?!" I guess longings are more longterm as you describe them. Ain't euphoria wonderful?! I don't associate them with drinking, though...but I know coming down from highs & dropping into depression has been a constant trigger for you. Enjoy the euphoria while it lasts, & we're here when depression starts to sink in. I think this thread is a wonderful source of support!
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Thinking about paying inside for gas to add a can of high test malt liquor is an urge. Having an image I can't shake of sitting under palm trees sipping wine and/or smoking weed 6 or 8 years from now in retirement is a longing.
Since I have been on lamictal, I have only fallen deep once and it was for only 6 days. I have had the low key sulk a few times though. I added wellbutrin because I tended to stay in the sulk until the next ride up and I wanted my "resting spot" to be more center. Sometimes even when I am in the sulk I will get waves of euphoria that pass pretty quickly. I never get them when more depressed.