My pdoc knows my history and that I still have longings for euphorics. I even go as far as: She - "You know what I think we might try next?" Me - "Low dose psychedelics?" She just rolls her eyes. I was up front about my adderall habit and had her switch me to straterra. She knows my nostalgia and longings are still there but that I am trying to keep my nose clean (inside and out ). I wouldn't like it if I had to watch what I say.