I wouldn't suggest this as ideal but I flushed all my booze down the toilet and didn't go out that day or the next or the next one day turned into multiple days and then a year I stopped the cravings never really stop to be honest even being sober 819days! I used to drink my feelings away and people just think that you'll be happier without it but dealing with those feelings is intense I tell you, but I am dealing with them and do have multiple counsellors for multiple things finally I mean things are being taken care of it only took 5 months of waiting for something and another solid gigizilion times after that to realize that I needed help in different areas of my life.

Screw my pdoc she's too hell bent on thinking "i am spoiled" I am nowhere far from it I just need support in my life which mental health cannot give completely they think they can but they are sadly mistaken! It's a shame really she needs her head adjusted everyone needs to have different areas of expertise while dealing with mental illness and addiction!