my case manager is losing sight of whats important i think...

she is pushing me... i am experiencing splitting symptoms with her and am worried/scared that i am going to do something regretful like skip appointment or terminate with her because of her actions when maybe she is just trying to help ... but she is not understanding me and where i am at and i need to make it clear to her because i am in a dangerous place and she needs to be gentle with me and take care with my treatment and listen more to me instead of dictate...

she is really stuck on this substance abuse thing... she doesnt talk about anything else anymore... she's turning into like everyone else... like everyone else believes that all my problems stem from substance abuse...
this is a huge trigger for me and i need to address it with her because being misunderstood like this makes me feel so alone and im not going to be able to talk to her about ANYTHING anymore at this point... i am shutting down...

substance abuse treatment is all fine and dandy

but i dont really have a substance abuse problem... not like everyone thinks... they all have it backwards and i have been trying to tell them but no one listens... or understands....

i need them to focus on trauma... i need them to help me... listen to me... be there for me... support me...
if i slip up and drink 4 or 5 beers dont worry about it because im not drinking a case of beer like i used to, because im not abusing alcohol anymore... if i smoke some weed, dont worry about it because im just trying to get some sleep because i havent slept in weeks or havent eaten anything in a few days... im not using other drugs like coke or meth...

but they dont believe me or care it seems like and im really beginning to be triggered and having splitting symptoms i cant control...

she gave me homework and wants me to "define what addiction is to me"
"list ways to help myself"
"list out ways that i want people to hold me accountable"

and i dont see how any of that is helpful to me at this point... because i am not drinking very much at all... i dont want to drink... i just want trauma treatment... want help getting out of this living situation i am in... want help getting financial independence...

this treatment path she is on is going in the wrong direction and i need to fix it before it triggers me to do something bad... because if she pushes me too far down this road it will cause me to do the opposite and probably start abusing drugs and alcohol just to spite... because i will get pissed off because she doesnt believe me and probably thinks i am using drugs or whatever...

im not in a very good place in my mind or in living situation...
i need them all to be gentle with me and compassionate...

how can i fix this...?