I just got out of surgery today, I'm still hospitalised but through an at home program where the nurses come out to look after you. I'm so glad because I had the biggest panic attack of my life while I was there, about 24 hours long, and I haven't been able to completely shake the feeling yet, but at least at home I can deal with it without a group of people knowing.

I had 2 sections of my bowel removed because they were stuck togther and they don't know why. It could be a number of things- endometriosis, colitis inflammation, or cancer that has spread. If the last reason is the case then I will need chemotherapy. I'm praying it's endometriosis as I originally thought years ago, or just colitis. Because I am having a hard time dealing with this right now. And I still have to wait longer to know for sure.