I kind of get this. There are things I was once passionate about and circumstances meant I couldn't participate for several years. I grieved deeply the fact it was beyond my control and may not ever do them again. An opportunity arose this past summer to do one of these activities. i just wasn't in the mind space to get excited about doing so and allowed the chance to lapse. I have been beating myself up since. It was after all a past time that once defined the very person I once was.

I look all the more now to those things I have since come to enjoy and realise I have been transformed.

Perhaps you yourself have grown to redefine the person you are. Are there things in your life that could potentially be new avenues for devotion? Are there things in your life you have not realised have been there as interests all this time? Maybe you have changed and you have just not noticed what may be positive.