When I was severely depressed three years ago, I had a really hard time enjoying music that I once enjoyed. That went on for months, and I was truly surprised since music is my greatest passion.

Thing is, you cannot control how you feel sometimes, and sometimes emotions can get in the way of what is supposed to be a good time.

I find that acceptance of my emotions as they come is key... they may arrive at inopportune times, and I try to put them aside so I can enjoy the moment.

The fact that you were at this concert, in the front row, yet feeling something different is simply something to accept about that moment --- you were there, and you appreciate the fact that you had the chance to see her live.

To live in regret is a heavy burden indeed..... I understand it fully, but try not to regret not enjoying it to the fullest. At least you had the chance to be there. As you said, be grateful for the experience.. it is one to appreciate, even if it wasn't everything you had hoped it would be for you. Life is like that, something we need to learn how to accept. Once we learn that life is not always as we hope it will be, we can be much happier and accepting of what is. ((((Hugs)))))