(((((jinnyann)))) you have been there for me through several posts and i want to thank you for sharing this with us.

in my experience i have noticed that i slowly remember things from my past like you described, but only when im finally ready. our unconscious knows everything about our past and its protecting you. if you cant remember something then its probably because youre not truly ready to accept it yet.

after going through some therapy at several different stages of my life, i have seen that when i have a realization and feel that ive really grown as a person, is when more things arise from my past. like i had always remembered a specific conversation with my parents but never what it was about. i remember their faces and them asking me a question but then recently i remembered that it was when they asked me if my cousin had molested me when i was little. my brain had been hiding that from me for 15 years. and when i remembered it, i didnt feel as horribly depressed as i would have say 5 years ago. so i think that if you stick with it and make a conscius effort, those memories will come back to you.

i hope youre feeling better. at least youre strong enough to go see a doctor and admit when something is wrong. a lot of people never reach that point and spend their whole lives repressing childhood memories. be thankful for that.