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Originally Posted by Copingmeadow
Thank you for the recent comments. I haven't been on here lately...just trying to clear my muddy mind a bit. Doing okay I suppose. I have another appointment with my T tomorrow, so I am happy about that. I am making the decision to not spend the hour talking about him. He can have 5 minutes, but that is it. I hate how many countless hours I have spent talking about him in therapy.
It is time to find who I am...without him. It is devestating...absolutely devestating...to begin to think of things as completely over forever. To think that I will never have him again. But I suppose, if I am so easily dismissed, I never really had him to begin with.
I do not really have any desire to speak with him again. I wish I could talk to the guy he presented himself as...the one who made it impossible not to love. But I haven't seen him in quite some time. Time to stop wishing and hoping. He certainly isn't sitting around thinking about me.
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Good for you for making this most healthy decision!! I've read through the thread here, and people have a lot of great insights and advice. You're moving on, and as you said, if you're so easily dismissed, you never really had him from the start.
Someone earlier on said that what he's done is cruel and I agree. When you care deeply about someone, you don't just drop them from your life like that, then come randomly back in again and again.
You deserve far better treatment than that. I am glad you are seeing that he is not worth your whole therapy session anymore. You are withdrawing, and I say that is the best decision you can make for yourself.
And yes, finding yourself again is very important. You can feel just as special all on your own. ((((((hugs))))))