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just feel I should be making more of an effort, but I just dont feel like it at all. I seem to be just existing....I HATE going out doors in the daylight, no I'm not a vampire, lol, just self conscious and paranoid.....

I dont like being me.....I would like to be someone else..confident, intelligent, useful....i wish i had more courage, strength......please dont think this is attention seeking, I always think people think that of me....i have always been told that.....i am speaking from my heart....i feel so pathetic, so many people have worse problems than me

I have to go.....i really just want to sleep and forget.....

sorry i'm so boring.....

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I can totally relate to your circumstances, jinnyann. I think the only difference between our situation is that you have a husband and a dog!

I don't hold up much hope for me, but I sure hope things begin to look up for you soon.

Take care