I could NOT sleep. I went to sleep around one and kept waking up. As a result I have felt emotionally fragile all day. I couldn’t concentrate at all in my workshop today. Then my coworker was nasty to me. Made me want to cry but I would never give her the satisfaction.

I get home and my house is a wreck even though I literally just cleaned everything Saturday. I get my son a snack, he spills his drink all over the couch and goldfish all over the floor. I tell him to clean it up and he starts yelling and crying, saying this is the worst day ever and what would happen if he set fire to the house. The other day he said he wanted to set fire to his school. I’m starting to get concerned. He’s only six, almost seven. Where is this coming from? I’m wondering if it’s youtube videos or if it’s older kids at aftercare saying these things. He doesn’t seem to be serious, and he’s not making threats, he’s just asking what would happen if he did that.

I’m so overwhelmed today. It’s only six pm, if I fall asleep now I will not sleep yet again tonight. But I really don’t want to do anything except lay here.