It has been years since I SIed but I sit here tonight kinda missing it. I am really stressed out right now and husband wont give me me time. I never get free time for myself. I keep thingking that if I SI I will get some attention for me instead of the world revolving aroung his egotistic nacisitic self. The main reason that I SIed is because no one seemed to care about me unless I was in the hospital in crisis. I was guranteed at least three days in if I SIed until they caught on and put me in a long term hospital for a while. I really do not wish to go back to that life style.

I want to open up to my T so bad but I am terrified. I just keep keeping this all inside. I am afraid that if I tell them what is in my head they will take my daughter from me. I will not hurt myself. I just am terrified to tell T I still ocasionally have thoughts. I wish I could say something like tonight when I could really use T's support. I can cope through this but some help as we all know is better. Someone please give me some ideas or experiences, especially if you have children