You said that you thought I was attractive and would love to take me on a date. Why was I so damb gullible. I should have known something was up since no other guy at school ever said anything to me and I was a geek. I was so tired of being alone. I should have stayed alone. When I left work with you and you kissed me , I told you I have never been on a date and felt afraid. Why did I not lisen to my own brain when you kissed me anyhow against my wishes. I took you to meet my parents and you acted like a perf3ect gentlemen. Why did my parents trust you. Why did they let me go off with you at the camp ground I was only 16. We walked through the woods to go back to the car. I should have known something was up. Why not follow the well lit and traveled path.

Before I new what hit me you tackled me to the ground. Your hand tightly over my mouth. I could not scream, I could not breath. Why. I feel the pine neetles sticking into my back. The sharp rocks cutting into my flesh. You tear my pants off. You know you want this tell me you like it tell me you love it. IYou want it hard don't you NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO I don't want this at all. I cry and you hit me on the face. This is not love this is not happening You push yourself hard into me I scream in pain.

I then somehow by gods grace leave my body I remember the stars that night I was floating away in the stars I was searching for death to take me away. I only remember the smell of your disgusting deoderant

I awke later half naked and bleeding in places you should not be bleeding. I know my parents will hate me . I must never never tell. I go home and wash and wash and wash and wash five hours later sitting in the freezing ice cold shower I make it to my room and collapse.

You have the nerve of showing up the next day at my house asking my parents to see me. I refuse to go away. My parents say I am rude. Years later when they learn what you did they understand my behavior that day.

I wish I would have told some one anyone. Maybe I would not be a mental case if I had.