i am in agony. there are moments in which i feel i am okay then there are times where i fall into the deep hole of depression and cant seem to get out of it. i just want the day to go by so i dont have to face anything, i drink pills so i can sleep and forget i exist. i wont do anything to harm myself but i am really falling face forward into this space that i cant seem to get out of. no one around me understands what i am going through so it is hard for them to help me. but they cant if i dont help myself. after therpy i feel worse. today i just want to cry and cry until there are no more tears left. no worries please i just needed to get this out of my chest.