I had a vivid dream last night of getting back together with my ex-fiance. It was sad. He was my best friend, but too much trust had been broken at the end, and I don't want to put myself through any more pain than what I'm already experiencing. I hope he is okay, but I don't want to text him, because I don't want to give him false hope, I hope he isn't mad at me for not checking in to see how he is, but it would be an extreme trigger for me to reach out, and I guess there is no point. So that dream made me sad. It's hard to let go, when it's somebody who was such a big part of your life. The break up was a while ago, but it still bothers me.

Aside from that, I just tried to do stuff to take my mind off of the negative. I'm still fighting through all the same emotions. Took Klonopin though, and at least that helped take the edge off a little. I have to go to work tomorrow, so that is stressful.