So, i have been going through some type of episode. I started to feel withdrawn and detached and honestly emotionally numb. I began to worry i might be a sociopath or something, and started doubting if i actually felt or could feel love for anyone, or any other emotion for that matter. I was with this girl, who i admittedly may have love bombed, but i dont think it was intentional, as i do think i WANTED there to be a real connection. Anyway, i got so bad, obsessing over these ideas of being an unemotional psychopath that i felt like i was lying to her and to myself. When i finally told her how i was feeling, she was obviously hurt and she left me. I dont know how i feel, i know i should feel terrible for doing this to her and making her feel this way but i dont know if i do, it doesnt feel like i really care to be honest, i know how that sounds. Im trying, im trying to out myself in her shoes and be remorseful and sorry. But its hard This is just reinforcing my fears of being what i dont want to be. I think ive made myself upset over all of it but im just so unsure of my feelings i dont know.